Monday, November 28, 2011 | By: BlackGargie

A Heart-Breaking Sight

Was a little down just now. No, not physically down, more like emotionally down, coz I saw something last night that I couldnt do anything about and it brought back old wounds

Last night we had BBQ for dinner, and as usual we invited some friends, and my 2nd sis in law and her family joined in.

Remember I said in my previous journals that she's quite the bitch sometimes?

Well, she was being a bitch to her own 4 year old daughter.

She wanted to record a movie channel from the satellite cable, but her daughter was watching cartoons, so she told her that she wanted to switch for just a moment so she can record the show.

Now it's understandable that the little girl would protest a little, but she only frowned just a little bit, she didn't even complain, and the mother saw her frown and shouted at her, "Don't gimme tht face, you brat! Stop being such a spoiled brat! You're always giving me that attitude!'

I was there and she was scolding her like I wasn't there, like she doesn't care whether she embarrasses her kid or not. Then she told her to "sit your ass on tht sofa or I'll smack you!" and did the threatening hand gesture. I saw the look on the little girl's face. She was terrified and she flinched like as if she was going to be hit by a mallet.

I know, right?

That little girl was born premature and is born with a hole in the heart and going to have a major heart surgery next year. She's a sick girl and can't run or jump too long without going out of breath or turn blue in the face and hands. She cant cry too hard or too much either or she would go blue and would cough until she cannot catch her breath, and she's treating her like she's not her daughter

She loves her sons more than she loves her. That's right, I said it.

Yeah, I was there, I saw the whole thing happen in front of her and it didn't even faze her one bit. When she did that threatening gesture, I had to say something. I told her "Hey, that's enough. You got your channel already, leave it", then she switched back to the cartoon channel for her and stomped off, leaving that little girl to cry like anything

I wanted to scream at her, to shout at her to stop being such a bitch to her own sick daughter, but I didn't want to start a scene on a nice BBQ night because I know she would scream and yell at me to mind my own fucking business and her husband, who's no limp noodle either, would back her up.

How can she do this to such a sick little girl? I mean if this is how she behaves in front of people, imagine what she's doing to her in the privacy of their home

When I say it brought back old wounds, it's coz it reminded me of myself with my mom.

I wanted to tell what I saw to either of my in-laws, but either my dad-in-law will say, "That's how she is, just forget about it" or my mom-in-law will start a fight with her and subsequently my sis in law will start a fight with me

My hubby and I had to comfort the poor little girl, it was heartbreaking...

How I wish we two could adopt her, I'd totally treat her right.

Anything good, they would let the eldest son have it, and needless to say they pamper their youngest son like no tomorrow. What about her? Kicked to the curb like nothing. Her bro is allowed to bully her, and says to people who sees that she deserved because she started it, when in fact it was not the case, and if she ever made the bro cry, she would be bombarded like anything.

Sometimes I would outright say it to my in-laws "If she hates her so much, give her to me, I'll treat her right"

They KNOW she's a sick girl and they KNOW one wrong move and she'll keel ovr, but do they give a fuck? NO~! If they cant even let her just so much as frown, sooner or later they wont even let her express herself, or show any emotion, and she'll grow up with a poker face or worse.

Later on, while we comforted the little girl, my sis in law cooled off and came back to lecture her. She told her "You know why I'm mad? Coz you never do as you're told and you're always having attitude. Don't even put that face at your dad, you know your dad gets angry and hates it if you do that, understand?"

Even the dad also do that! It makes me even more fearful for her!

What's next? Bruises and cuts? Scars? Whip marks?

God, it's like history replaying right in front of me!

It really breaks my heart to see this. It really did. I couldn't stop thinking about last night and almost couldn't sleep. When I told this to my hubby just now, I ended up crying for her. It was that bad.

Is this what she had to go through everyday? Is this what she has to face for the rest of her life?

I really fear for her...
Thursday, November 24, 2011 | By: BlackGargie

Pony Personality Test

I took this test for the hell of it when I saw someone did it in dA, and this is what I got

Rarity

OK...Seriously?!
Full personality description:

You have a knack for drama and overexaggerating things, as well as doing whatever you can to keep from getting your hooves dirty. But, putting that aside, you're also very self-conscious about yourself, are generally very polite (unless someone deserves a little of your attitude), and have impecable manners and sense of style.

Just because you delight in being the center of everyone's attention doesn't mean you give no attention in turn. You're incredibly generous, showering your friends with gifts, spending time with them and doing fun things like shopping and makeovers, and doing everything in your power to help elevate your friends' self-worth. Even though a friend may be more popular than you, you are still willing to help them out with their success, hoping that you'll get your piece of the pie in turn.

You have a tendency to be overly obsessive over small details, sometimes worrying too much about them rather than looking at the whole picture. Your attention to detail does come in handy at times, though. You also loooooove fashion, style, and looking as good as any pony can be! Whatever it takes to look as classy and elegant as possible — that's your motto, because you care how other ponies see you, and want to make sure that your impression is the one that stands out the most.

Saturday, November 19, 2011 | By: BlackGargie

TV Series That Should Be Made Into Movies

Everyone has their own very favourite TV series, some that even has been completed but sometimes never really concluded properly due to entertainment politics. What if they were made into movies? How would it be like?

Here are some TV series that I would love to have been done as a feature film:

John Doe

This is one of those series that should've been continued but did not, so it would do it justice if they actually made a feature film out of this. Even though during a press conference, the director revealed that John Doe was actually a part of many others who underwent an experiment in which he experiences a near-death phenomena in order to prove that all life's greatest knowledge and questions are answered prior to total death, I would've liked it if they actually did a feature film to actually explain all that. If they couldn't do anything about continuing the series, at least make this feature film to explain it away and reveal the real reason behind this experiments and why John Doe was being subjected to that and to what end, and also explain the cult that had something to do with a religious rod that ultimately explains John Doe's past, present and future fate. That would be cool, wouldn't it?


CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

This TV series definitely needs to be made into a feature film. I mean, who wouldn't want to watch their favourite stars duke it out on the big screen solving a murder case, maybe even a case bigger than any TV series director (who sometimes think small) could ever imagine? Would it not be a cool thing? In fact, they should make a big bulk crossover between Las Vegas CSI team, Miami CSI team and New York CSI that is hunting down a big mutual serial killer of some sorts and them working together to catch this almost uncatchable killer. I mean, why not? They've done it before once in the TV series, why not do it again in a big feature film? Wouldn't that be a tempting thought?

Early Edition

Now this one is a TV series that should be made into a feature film. Despite 4 seasons and a vast amount of supporters, sadly they did not continue the series and apparently left the series hanging. Why not make a movie to conclude everything? What paper is that? Why is it sent to Gary? What exactly is the main purpose for that? Who and what is the cat for? What sort of a being is it really is to be able to transcend time and space and live among so many other early editioners to help save people through a bloody newspaper? How long has this thing been going on? Who did create the newspaper in the first place anyway? It would a great way to conclude everything in that one feature film that totally explains the origin and the reason for the tomorrow's newspaper today, wouldn't it?

Psych

This one is worth a shot at the big screen. It's hard to find good comedy these days and this could prove to be a good way to expand the comedy and mystery of Psych into the big screen. In fact, it could happen especially when they've already started having an arch-foe in the series since Season 3: Mr. Ying and Mr. Yang. The showdown between our lovable fake psychic, his funny sidekick, and the two psychos ever walked the planet Earth. I'm not sure if they would do it in Season 5 or not, but if it were in the movie, it would be nice to know of this arch-foe, who they are, what exactly makes them tick, what drove them to commit such crimes, what is their obsession with Shawn and all that. Totally cool hilarity in it all!

Fringe

This X-File-esque TV series by the famous J.J. Abrams who did the bloody famous Lost series definitely deserves a chance to be made a feature film as X-Files did. A film that may totally crack the foundation of the storyline by bringing in the ultimate showdown between people who want to cross over to the other side and take over the current dimension and Olivia Dunham (with her newly discovered powers) and the team, also ultimately explain who and what are these Observers that go around watching great catastrophes around the world throughout time and history. And hopefully ultimately explain how the hell Peter ended up in this dimension (though I have a feeling they will explain it in the new season) and whether or not he'll be able to have certain powers like Olivia has, and also learn the true identity and motive of William Bell, the man behind all this mishaps.

The Mentalist

This series could prove to be, like Psych, a good series to be made into a movie. In fact, there has already been a running theme throughout this series: Red John, the man who killed Patrick Jane's wife and daughter and ultimately the person that drives Jane into doing what he does right now with the police. We could reveal more about the people around him and also more of Patrick himself while doing, again, a showdown between him and Red John, making it the ultimate story for them in this cat and mouse game to see who will win and once and for all, reveal Red John and his true identity (or even his true face for that matter).

Kyle XY

Now this here should definitely be made into a movie. Sad but true, despite fans, the producer believed a bunch of silly viewer ratings and not thinking of the long run and canceled the show just on its third season, when they could explain more about Kyle and the whole point of his nature and reason of being created, as well as his gender counterpart, Project XX. Give closure to the series in a better way and end it with a happy (or sad) note, showing that Kyle XY is concluded as it should be and not left with an open-ended cliffhanger, not knowing what will be the fate of Kyle and his family and Project XX

Yeah, so these are my opinions as to which TV series should be made to movies. If you guys have anything else to contribute to this, feel free to comment.

This Is It...


I went to watch MJ: This Is It movie and only one word sums it all: AMAZING!!

I was rather intrigued when the trailer came out and my fiance showing it to me. I mean, this is the first time a concert footage was made into a movie. Usually this kind of stuff is done into a straight-to-DVD style, but to broadcast it out like this in big screen, it was something well worth to look forward to.

My fiance's eldest bro-in-law's friend works at the cinema as the guy who fixes up all the ads and trailers before a movie sequence and he said the show was coming to Brunei and he can pull some strings into booking tickets for us. We jumped to the chance to make our booking and waited anxiously for the show.

On the day, besides my fiance's 2nd sister and her family, all of us went to watch the show. We got to know some new friends in the process, mostly friends of the guy who helped us book the tickets, and also his colleague, which me and my fiance's eldest sister called him "Eye Candy", because he was so good-looking~! LOL

Neways, once the show starts and played throughout that almost 2 hours, it was mind-blowing. I won't spoil it for those who haven't watched it, but man, it was amazing! He had made so much planning and tons of big-scale stuff that would totally hype up and top off what he usually does on stage back then. It was totally AWESOME! It almost felt so heartbreaking that this is the stuff that we would have seen if he had not gone from this world. He had made so much for us, and now it will never be, we will never see it in reality EVER again.

New dancers, new singers, mostly the younger generations, have actually auditioned for this before they officially started the rehearsals and out of more than 400 candidates (bloody hell, 400! Can you imagine?!), about a dozen and a half were chosen. They had the time of their lives, judging by the way they hung out with MJ doing his rehearsals and training. Makes me feel so jealous. If I were to be able to go back in time, I would probably chose to apply a job here with them, even if it means being the janitor, I don't bloody care! As long as I can be with MJ! Though, probably throughout the rehearsal, you might find a lot of things belonging to MJ missing if they'd hired me~! LOL, fangirl dreams never cease to please.

The songs were nostalgic, and you couldn't help but sing along with it. Also, the dances and the beats were so nice, your body would just uncontrollably want to move along with it. And best of all, we're seeing him sing as it is, raw and live, without the crazy screaming fans in the background. Did you know that they originally scheduled for only 10 concerts, but then shockingly shot up to 50 by demand? It's almost the same number as MJ's age!

It feels kinda ironic and sad at the same time that when MJ said "This is it, this is the final curtain call" and those were probably the last words he had ever said to the public. Almost like a curse, a bad omen of a phrase. It tugged at my heartstrings (though not to the point of crying buckets, because to be honest, I'm not 100% a fan; I just like majority of his songs) to see that he's done so much here, putting so much effort into what he's doing and he could never bring it out anymore.

The friends of the guy who helped us book tickets were more excited than most. They LOL-ed at funny moments, cheered and whooped at the amazing things MJ had in store in his concert and clapped every time one song ends. I couldn't care less and took the advantage of Bruneians ignoring nature (it's their style: If you're doing something weird that does not concern them, they will just ignore you and pretend nothing happened) and joined their hype as well, cheering and whooping and singing along with it, though short of actually clapping.

Once the show was over, I finally remembered my bladder that I was holding back for so long while watching the show was about to burst as I made a run for it to the toilet. Everyone really enjoyed it and talked about it once we're outside the cinema. It's a little disappointing for me to see that it wasn't a full house when I came into the cinema, because I would expect the King of Pop getting exposure even from Brunei friends, but I guess their mentality would be: Why pay to watch a rehearsal if it's not the real deal? It's just sad.

Thinking about it now, all we know that is mostly talked about MJ were his crimes of being pedo (which I never believe it to be true even though I'm not a 100% fan; they're just sueing for the money and the drama) and him being debts and his plastic surgery and stuff. All they could ever talk about was his bad. None of them ever thought about the fact that he had revolutionized pop music and all his achievements and contribution to the public. No one ever thought of his good, always the bad, almost like the saying "You can take a lifetime to build trust, but one second to destroy it all". And now that he is dead, suddenly everyone keeps focusing on his good side, even the media, as if it was enough to make up for all their sins of doubting MJ. They couldn't even put a good word on him when he was ALIVE, how is giving him a good word when he's DEAD gonna make any difference? I got a feeling that they made this movie not just for the sake to dedicate him, but also for the sponsors, to cover their losses over MJ's supposed concert that they spent millions on. I swear, it's bloody "human nature" (pun from MJ's song intended).

Anywho, it's a great show that no one should ever miss. Go watch it! I recommend it. Relive MJ's final moments with his entertainment family and witness the magic that he had intended to give us.
Friday, November 18, 2011 | By: BlackGargie

Best Animated Short EVER!!!!!

When I saw this video:



I was like: OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY CAN'T I BE IN US???????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I mean, check this out!



I went screaming: AGH!!!! I WANT ME SOME!!!

Then after my dA journal rant, I finally have the chance to watch it, and it was the best animated short ever!!!

Oh god, HTTYD - Gift of the Night Fury is AMAZING!!!

I will not tell you how I got it, nor will I tell you what the story is about, since I don't wanna spoil it, but it is amazing!!! FUCKING AMAZING!!!

I'm not ashamed to admit it is WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY better than the latest Toy Story animated short! Seriously! No doubt in my mind!

I watched it a gajillion times, and I even showed it to my hubby, and he was impressed. And no matter how many gajillion MORE times I watch it, it is still FUCKING AWESOME!!!

God, guys, you really MUST get that animated short!

God bless the person who gave me that chance! Seriously! God bless you!
Wednesday, November 16, 2011 | By: BlackGargie

And the Oscars Goes to...

My comments on this year's Oscar winners:


Got this from The Associated Press. Thought I'd share and give my two-cents

List of the 83rd Annual Academy Award winners announced Sunday:

1. Best Picture: "The King's Speech."
Totally deserved that. It's one of those amazing motivational heart-warming movies, with some of the known British actors that were in Harry Potter (namely our ol' Dumbly and Wormtail) in there and Geoffrey Rush totally delivered

2. Actor: Colin Firth, "The King's Speech."
Totally deserved that too. Colin Firth really played his role quite well as a stuttering King getting in grips with public speaking, and the end where he finally delivered his speech was just astounding, though some part of me wished that Geoffrey Rush won it coz his role as Colin's mentor was no less spectacular

3. Actress: Natalie Portman, "Black Swan."
Haven't actually watched the movie yet, but from what reviews were given about the movie, I guess she totally deserved it

4. Supporting Actor: Christian Bale, "The Fighter."
Never watched this movie, so can't comment on this, although Christian definitely deserves an award for SOMETHING

5. Supporting Actress: Melissa Leo, "The Fighter."
Ditto here, though no idea who Melissa Leo is

6. Directing: Tom Hooper, "The King's Speech."
Totally deserved it, of reason in #1

7. Foreign Language Film: "In a Better World," Denmark.
Never watched this, so can't comment on this

8. Adapted Screenplay: Aaron Sorkin, "The Social Network."
This movie is actually surprisingly pretty good for a tribute movie of the guy behind Facebook. They portrayed him as an ass effectively and it's amazing how from humble beginnings of a outwordly geek (who did this for the sake of a jilted ex-girlfriend in attempts for her to notice him) to the world's youngest billionaire, so yeah, totally deserved this

9. Original Screenplay: David Seidler, "The King's Speech."
Nuff said for Reason #1

10. Animated Feature Film: "Toy Story 3."
This one I can totally NOT agree on. HTTYD was also nominated for this category, and I, for one, say that HTTYD should totally get the award instead of them. Granted that they did an awesome job on Toy Story 3 and had a feel-good heart-warming ending, but in the end, Pixar movies are all for kids because they are technically still under Disney, which means child-safe movies are a must. Dreamworks have been rising into the ranks and had made a movie that appealed everyone of all ages, even the adults. Pixar's stuff is mostly for kids and usually adults wouldn't watch it unless they're there to accompany their children to watch it, and just because it's Pixar doesn't mean it's the best movie ever. Take Up and The Incredibles for example. I didn't enjoy it as much as I would've hoped for, but I watched HTTYD without any high expectations and it totally blew me away! So, my reaction to this award is "WTF??!!" Totally not deserving! OK, maybe a little, but HTTYD should've won!!!

11. Art Direction: "Alice in Wonderland."
I totally have no qualms over that. This movie is pretty much a visual treat, with the gothic colour contrasts and whatnot, as it is Tim Burton's signature style colour coding of his movies, so no objection there

12. Cinematography: "Inception."
Totally deserved it, I mean, do I NEED to even say more about how awesome the way they made their movie transitions and whatnot? It is beyond any words that can amazingly describe the kick ass awesomeness of the movie. Though part of me do feel that it also should've won the Best Film

13. Sound Mixing: "Inception."
Nuff said for reason #12

14. Sound Editing: "Inception."
Nuff said for reason #12

15. Original Score: "The Social Network," Trent Reznor and Atticus Ross.
Nuff said for reason #8

16. Original Song: "We Belong Together" from "Toy Story 3," Randy Newman.
Nuff said for reason #10

17. Costume Design: "Alice in Wonderland."
Nuff said for reason #11

18. Documentary Feature: "Inside Job."
Never watched this, so I can't comment on this, but I feel maybe one of Michael Moore's work should've been in there

19. Documentary (short subject): "Strangers No More."
Never watched this, so I can't comment on this

20. Film Editing: "The Social Network."
Nuff said for reason #8

21. Makeup: "The Wolfman."
LOL, at least they got something out of their rather B-rated film

22. Animated Short Film: "The Lost Thing."
Never watched this, so I can't comment on this

23. Live Action Short Film: "God of Love."
Never watched this, so I can't comment on this

24. Visual Effects: "Inception."
Nuff said for reason #12

Previously presented honorary Oscars: film historian and preservationist Kevin Brownlow, director-producer Francis Ford Coppola, director Jean-Luc Godard and actor Eli Wallach.
So guys, whaddaya think of this list of winners? Justified? Unjustified? Gimme your thoughts
Friday, November 11, 2011 | By: BlackGargie

1 Year Together


Wow, can't believe it's been a year now since our wedding ceremony. We've been together for a year and pulled through the first hurdle of married life. Wow, ain't it awesome?

Thinking back, it was a bit of a long road to get to this point. The years of secret courting coz my mom didn't approve our relationship, the day my hubby saved my life and took me away from the hellish nightmare I've been living for 20 years, and the subsequent years we've been dating and living under one roof before finally deciding to register and tie the knot, then the obstacles and hardships we have to go through to scrounge up for the actual wedding ceremony and all that, all to come down to this point in our life.

It feels almost like yesterday that our wedding ceremony had been done. Now it's been a year together as actual married couples.

Feels rather nice and fluffy sweet actually.

We're off to spend our anniversary at Empire Hotel, our very own local 6-star hotel, so look out for the update blog on our anniversary!
Monday, November 7, 2011 | By: BlackGargie

Jigsaw Puzzle World

Just something I'd like to blog about, which is the Jigsaw Puzzle World. Nothing too long-winded, just a brief intro here and there, since the pics speaks more for itself


The entrance and display case of the shop, where every puzzle under the sun was sold there

Small-sized puzzles...

Mini-puzzles...

Huge-ass puzzles...








...and everything else in between, especially glow-in-the-dark ones

Me buying my puzzle, which is prolly the most expensive thing I've ever bought in my hometown, and it was a puzzle of Mickey and Minnie in a church wedding, since at the time we visited the church, we were getting close to our wedding day




Some for display there, but unfortunately, the Kingdom Hearts one is not for sale, not in their sales display and this one was for display only and cannot bought off from this

By the way, this was what I bought (best pic sample I could grab from the internet that shows my puzzle), which I'm currently trying to put together right now

There you have. This shop is located in 1Borneo Hypermarket in KK, so do be sure to drop in even if just to check out the displays

Traveling Thru the Grapevine


I heard something from my buddy last time I went on a lunch date with him and made me pissed.

No, it's not what my buddy said to me that pissed me off. It was what he told me what he heard that pissed me off

He told me that he heard from my gal pal that her neighbour has been going around gossiping about me still not having a child and spreading rumors that I'm prolly infertile and can't have children.

Saying that I've been married for so long and I still don't have kids.

I was so pissed! How dare her?!

My gal pal's neighbour is my dad-in-law's friend as well, and she must've heard from my dad-in-law and went spreading around such hurtful rumours.

It just makes me so pissed.

Who gives her the right to say such things?

She's not my mother or my mother-in-law!

What does me having children or not have to do with it?

What does she want me to do?

Be pregnant the very next day after marriage??

Then she'll prolly tell everyone, "Oh~! So fast get pregnant? She must've been knocked up before. No wonder they're rushing into the marriage"

I just can't please anybody, can I? Have kids, and the rumours of me being pregnant out of wedlock will go about. Have no kids, and the rumours of me being infertile would spread out.

Goddammit...
Sunday, November 6, 2011 | By: BlackGargie

‎51 FACTS ABOUT GUYS :)


1. Guys hate sluts.

2. “Hey, are you busy?” or “Are you doing something?” ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

3. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

4. Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they’re gonna say so there aren’t awkward pauses, but once he’s on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

5. Guys go crazy over a girl’s smile.

6. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

7. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they’re goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-
how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

8. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

9. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they’re still loved.

10. Don’t talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

11. Guys get jealous easily.

12. Guys are more emotional than they’d like people to think.

13. Giving a guy a hanging message like “You know what?!..uh…nevermind..” would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he’ll assume he did something wrong and he’ll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

14. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

15. Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.

16. Girls are guys’ weaknesses.

17. Guys are very open about themselves.

18. It’s good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don’t let him wait too long.

19. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

20. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don’t need to give advice.

21. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

22. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

23. Guys will brag about anything.

24. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you.

25. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn’t notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

26. Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy’s confused, then we’re all confused.

27. Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

28. Try to be as straightforward as possible.

29. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he’s too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won’t be mature and grown up.

30. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

31. No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

32. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

33. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

34. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he’s probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

35. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

36. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he’s just actually saying, “Please come and listen to me.”

37. Guys don’t really have final decisions.

38. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn’t happen that often, so when it does, you know something’s up.

39. If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you’re with your boyfriend, he’s probably jealous and likes you.

40. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he’s definitely thinking something.

41. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

42. Guys don’t like girls who punch harder than they do.

43. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

44. Don’t be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

45. Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

46. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

47. Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

48. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

49. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl’s mind for a day.

50. No guy can handle all his problems by his own. He’s just too stubborn to admit it

51. Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of us.
Saturday, November 5, 2011 | By: BlackGargie

Yayasan Sabah

Went to Yayasan Sabah to actually try out the famed revolving restaurant the people having raving about in the internet. It was something new, so of course we wouldn't wanna miss something that interesting that is actually happening and available in my hometown


This be the building. Nice and tall, been around like forever. It's something like a non-profit organization, thus the Yayasan Sabah (Sabah Foundation). I remember it used to have a sort of old seafood restaurant called 'Jaws' or something where I had my first steamboat and karaoke exposure. Guess that's really what made me a big fan of karaoke

Le entrance of the building

The full-scale picture of the building...

...and me posing in front of it

Going up to find our way to the revolving restaurant, and it turns out they were having some sort of Parents' Day performance or something and the MC thought we were tourists trying to locate the performance and urged us to follow the line. Well, I definitely set the record straight and she was like "Oops! Awkward~!" It does remind me of my time with my church choir group where we literally performed our soul off for the people, my first role as a choir leader as well as being in a dance group of sorts



Le entrance for the building that supposedly house the revolving restaurant. Sadly when we went in, we were disappointed because the security guards told us that the revolving restaurant had been out of business for almost the past 3 months. So sadly, we won't be able to enjoy dining while spinning around XD


Just some random shots I took, including the stairs of the other side of the building leading towards it, which kinda reminds me of the stairs climb in the Rocky movie franchise LOL



Random shot of the car display that was driven by the man who built and founded the building. I dunno about cars, but this looks pretty cool for that timeline

Overall, a bit of a disappointment of a trip, but a small little memory lane for a while there. Who knows, they'll bring the revolving restaurant

Down Memory Lane-Part 2

Another trip down Memory Lane and it lead all the way to Taman Greenview, which was another one of my old homes. I couldn't take too much pictures, since we were in a hurry to get somewhere, but I took whatever I could since the detour to our destination was at the same route as my old home was.

This home is prolly where I actually have an actual huge bunch of friends and my training ground as a nanny because during that time, my mom had a business collab with a family friend of ours (who seemed to also be friends with my godmother too) to start a tuition/daycare centre. So during the day on school hols (and after school in the afternoon) I would be in charge to look after little kiddies and entertain them during daycare while my mom and the family friend are in charge of the tuition for both the afternoon and the night batch. And that's where my huge batch of friends came in.

This is the neighbourhood. It is a housing estate within an estate, meaning to say that the Taman Greenview consists of the main one, which I stayed, and a sub-estate just outside of the main one but was built with the borders of the main one around it, sorta. When you enter the place, there will be a playground to greet you. I've never really played in the playground, but I do have my share of friendly neighbours, which is down this road that is in my picture. The friend I remember the most who lives along this neighbourhood would be the gay boy who loves Sailormoon (which, during back then amongst us kids, is frowned upon of a boy who loves girl cartoons) and loves girly things his sister does and in fact, wears a training bra. Yes, seriously, a training bra. Not shitting you. He had this pomeranian which gave birth to a litter, but I was too late to reserve a pup from him. Wonder how he is now though...

This be the house I lived in. The rest of the house was, of course, the place where tuition and daycare is situated, but the master bedroom where the balcony is was the only home we were in that had even the remote sense of privacy. We couldn't get in (obviously) since new people have moved in, but I remember that towards the back of the house, there was a kitchen and an outdoor open-air room that faces the backyard for laundry and stuff, then there's the living room/dining room, and a basement toilet that the bowl faces a storeroom, and going up there would be a vacant spot and a guest toilet and two guestrooms: one for the maid and one for the kids to have their naptime during daycare, and finally our master bedroom with our own bathroom and a door that connects to the balcony/front porch.

There were good times, bad times and crappy mom-is-a-bitch times, but overall, it was a place where I actually had friends. Not super-duper real friends, mind you, but at least friends to be with instead of being cooped up friendless and lonely in my own world. I had an almost normal childhood living here, but sadly I had to leave, prolly due to my loner and anti-social of a mom thinking that it was still not enough privacy to go around amongst us

Will have more travel down Memory Lane soon the next time I return to my hometown

Down Memory Lane-Part 1

Decided to go on a trip down Memory Lane and blog about all the homes that I have lived in in the past from when I was a kid till now, just for the sake of good ol' remembrance, and also to show off how many homes I have and how awesome they were, LOL

This be my first home. The place where I have spent the better half of my childhood more or less, when things were peaceful and the shit that is my parents' divorce had yet to happen. It's located down towards the Tun Fuad area, in Reservoir Garden Phase II (yes, there's a Phase I and Phase II), right across the street to where the pilak (our native slang for Indonesians and Filipinos migrating to our country) ghetto is. Here and there is where I spent quite a bit of my childhood

Le gates of entry...


...and le post box of doom. Why do I call that? Because you never know when a creepy lizard might suddenly crawl out of it and scare the bejeesus outta you

The convenient water tap where we usually connect the hose to water our plants (and play water and cool off from the heat with)

This be the front yard where the house plants and all are. It used to be much bushier than this actually, but it seems like my dad must've gotten rid of the lot. There used to be a tree as well where I love to pluck at the leaves. I think it was a pine tree or something, but that was gone too, sadly. I loved that tree. I sorta imagined a lot of things and imaginary adventures with that tree and his companion flower bushes

This be sorta my front porch. I remember it having tons of potted plants back then and I got stung by a bee from one of the potted plants when I tried to coax my dog out from behind it. Yeah, good times

The front door that leads to the porch

Random shot of the porch wall, that also leads to the parking driveway right behind it


This be the corner ceilings where all the swallows come to roost. Apparently somehow our house is the only place where the birds would roost and make their nests at, and no other houses have ever been visited by these birds. Well, some say having swallows in your home is a sign of good luck, but I'd like to call it free-loading XD

We let them stay at our place, and that's pretty much the thanks we get from them -_-'''

The entry to my home, which almost feels like a American-ish home entry

Driveway light...

...And the mysterious vacant space. It has really always been a mystery to me somehow. I was often not allowed to enter there, but when I peeked in, there isn't anything there but bits and pieces of old junk that's been laid there forgotten, including a toolbox meant for fixing cars and stuff, I think. I often imagine as a kid that if I were to enter into that place, it would be some sort of a mysterious secret gateway for me to go into another realm or another world entirely. Till this day, I'll never know. I've never really truly climb in there


Even though I know what's in there, this place still feels like a mystery to me. The secret gateway seems to be more and more plausible

When you enter a shoe rack would greet you, though I doubt my dad would ever have more than one shoe now there's no woman and child in his life

Sat here many times to have my shoes worn. And that cabinet is almost like a private place just for me to put my shoes. Ah, good times

Le living room, where I spent quarter of my childhood during visitations to my dad's on the weekend watching TV, doing homework, eating lunch/dinner and drawing, or sometimes even catch a snooze there. It's a nice breeze if you leave the front porch door open to let in the air and the sun, and accompanied with the fan, there is nowhere else cooler than there, well, that is until I kinda got accustomed to Brunei life and air-conditioning is kinda a must for us, and now since my dad discovered the joys of enjoying TV in your own room, yeah, the old TV which was abysmally lack of reception was now gone

The mystery teapot set. It has always intrigued me as to where this tea set came from. It was never used, just put there for the sake of decor and I was never allowed to touch it, and was said to be in the family for generations. Now my dad use it to keep change and spare keys, but the design still intrigued me till today

Who gave it to us? How long has this tea set been with us? How many generations was it passed on? How much did it cost back then? What's it worth now? Where did it originally come from? These are questions that I will never know

The intriguing design, almost English. And the man and the woman depicted on the tea set? Still a mystery to me

The dining room, which my dad decided to put a divider there for no particular reason LOL


The overall look of the dining room. It's nice and quaint, and enough space for everyone with leg room to boot, and it was during times when there is nothing on TV or when my dad insist to eat at the table where I would enjoy a good home-cooked meal of steam chicken and vegetables the good ol' Chinese style. The thing about my dad compared to my mom was that he was a way better cook than her and kept me way more well fed than I could ever remember my mom had done, and the ingredients that he used for cooking are fresh directly from the markets and not processed ones in the supermarket, and he can even make my most unfav meal be so delicious it's a shame not to eat it

The antique silverware collection! Well sorta. It feels odd when I took this picture because...I don't remember it being this small at all. Everything suddenly seemed so small to me now that I'm in this home. When I was growing up, everything looked big to me but now...Ah, how time flies...

The tea sets that never see the light of day, or table, that is





Close-up shots


Chinese silverware here too, including the wedding tea set. Hmm...Seems my dad had already have ulterior motives as to having THAT tea set -__-




More close-up of tea sets and silverware, some of them actually used before during my visitation weekend days here

The door that leads to the side porch

Ah, the good ol' chain where I used to pretend it's a swing or a Tarzan rope and dangle about it. I would do it and relive my childhood again if it weren't for the fact that now it's all tangled up and growing moss all over. Eww...

This side porch is a good place for rest and relaxation outdoors (also good place for smokers), and maybe even have barbecue of sorts right here. I spent my childhood here too, sometimes re-enacting scenes from my fav Disney movies or make imaginary adventures in my head and pretended this porch was my world to animate my stories


Seats to sit on and relax, and for me to jump and prance about in my own little world. There used to be more plants around here, and I remember a long tree vine that crawled up the edge of that wall over there and there was a bird's nest, and I remember there was also a red ant's nest nearby and the poor little hatchlings became ant chow and the mother couldn't do anything about it, so my mom put the hatchlings out of their misery and took it down. I don't remember where she buried it (or if she ever buried it at all) but that was one of the most gruesome scenes I've seen in my childhood of the animal kingdom

Road that leads towards the front porch and the front garden

There used to be a water tank here last time that made a lot of chugging sounds when I was a kid, and now that it's removed, it feels as if something's missing there


Random close up shots of flowers


Back inside, we have another thing that had always been a mystery to me, which is this drawer here. At a glance when you open it, it would be nothing more than another one of those built in drawers where you can keep anything random that you want in there, and the top there (or was it the left side?) would be the fuse box whenever the electricity blew out and my dad always go there to have it checked, but to me, as a kid, it was still a mystery. Why was it there? Why of all places must there be a built-in drawer here? Is it another gateway to another universe?

Yes, my brain is equivalent to half of Calvin's capacity. Shut it



Le downstairs guestroom bathroom, complete with shower, toilet, basin and stuff. Although this seemed to be the only competent one of all the bathrooms in the house, well, except the toilet, still doesn't flush as well as Brunei's toilet


We have the closet/storeroom under the stairs that is connected here in both areas. Harry Potter would prolly be more willing to stay in this one rather than the one at the Dursleys. At least it has more room. Again, it was a source of mystery to me that I have yet to dare venture into. Another possible realm of the a different world or dimension might reside in it, as well as the fact that it's damn dark and creepy

The maid's room, which was converted into a storeroom somehow after our longest-standing maid Marta has officially retired from our family. Marta had been our faithful maid for many years since they first employed her before I was born. I've witnessed her expanding her brood as well as she would often show up pregnant while doing the housework and looking after me, and her children had become part of our family for a while, and her husband, whom I think is a cab driver, also drops by to check on her and play with me as well. She was the best maid we've ever had

Le kitchen, which my dad had kept most of the features in except the fridge. He had finally changed it into a bigger, taller fridge instead of that 20-year-old fridge that had been around since the day I was born. On the right, would be the extra wooden tables and chairs where you can eat in the kitchen in case you run out of room at the dining room. I sat on that table most of my toddler years either watching my father cook, or for him to feed me medicine or to put face cream for my acne problems. Yeah, kudos to my dad. I seem to remember most of what he did for me than my mom somehow, since most of the time, if I were sick, I get dumped here anyways

There's the good ol' stove that often makes the snapping sounds whenever my dad tries to light a fire, and the drawers for all the necessary drinks and ingredients

Here would be the sink, and on the counter is where the dish tray is and also the spices like salt, pepper, flour and all that are put. I remember they used to be kept in cute little fruit-themed jars and you open them and try to figure out which is what. And that opening on the wall there is actually where you slip the food through so people would carry out to the dining room, like a restaurant kitchen would

The kitchen leads outdoors (which I forgot to take a picture of the door) to the backyard, which, of course, I couldn't resist showcasing

This be where all the laundry is done. I remember we had this REALLY SUPER OLD washing machine that makes crazy sounds whenever the clothes are washed, and it always fascinated me as a child when they drain out the soap and the water and I would just raise the drainage hose and spread the soap/water all over the place. This was also the place where we bathed our pet dogs and I would sit and watch my mom pluck fleas out of the dogs and drown them in a pail of water (Oi vey, I feel bad saying that now that I'm into the big cute flea Francoeur), and also where I had my head lice killed, by having my mom douse my hair with anti-bacterial solution that felt like she poured acid on my head, let it stand, and wash it off. I can still remember that dead black lice falling off my head and getting flushed down the drain. Ugh, worse day ever

The ancient tub that had been around since the dawn of time, prolly. Useful to keep backup water whenever there is a water cut or something, and once or twice, I've actually submerged myself into that tub LOL


The laundry hanger and the railings that overlooks the housing estate of Reservoir Garden Phase I. I remember dropping my sipper from there and never got it back


More freeloaders here XD

More of our backyard, which back then there was this huge tree growing right gobsmack in the middle there that produced wonderful mangoes that can be plucked fresh from the tree and eaten, but unfortunately thieves have been using this as leverage to climb and break into the house once too often, so my dad had to cut the tree down. There was also a papaya tree back then that had to go too because termites infested the foot of the bark and was killing it, so we had to chop it off. I still remember peeling the crusty nest off the bark with my maid's daughter and out sprang those little white bastards which we killed a few with a vengeance. No one kills my fav papaya tree and gets away with it

The sewer line, and till now I never understood what the 'G' meant


The stairs up to the 2nd floor, with the side decors to match, though I distinctively remember there were more decors there than this

When you reach the top of the stairs, you'll be greeted with this couple, which is a old-as-hell sofa seats whom I've spent my phone-talking days lying down or sitting or lounging about while talking really long ass conversations with my fellow primary school classmates with the good ol' land line phone when tiny hand-held cell phones were not in the rage back then

The good ol' master bedroom, another place where I spent the better half of my childhood before the divorce and during my weekend visitations until I finally hit puberty. Lunch/dinner was served here, TV was watched here and many of my ideas (including yaoi and mpreg) were born here

The good old bed which I've spent 10++ years of my life sleeping on until I hit puberty and can no longer be in the same room or on the same bed with my dad anymore, since, well, you know, since I've become a woman

The built-in wardrobe that has impossible high drawers to keep god knows what, and also a good place for me to either play hide-and-seek or for me to sulk in whenever I get into an argument with my dad

Built-in table counter, with drawers that, on the left, is for me to keep my arts and stuff, and also where I used to keep dozens and dozens of VHS video cassettes that I prolly watched a gajillion times, and on the right, where my dad keeps his stuff, mainly his old magazines, some of them tabloids, some of them spice of life, some of them adult. It has an old chair that bites if you stick your leg too far out the chair's edge. God, I really hate that chair.

The TV counter, which my dad has now replaced the lame ass TV that needs an antenna reception that I have to twist and turn to get an image with a bigger, better, much more modern TV, though that almost looks like either an old school Astro or an illegal one

This USED to be the 3-way mirror dressing counter, until my dad found out that having a 3-way mirror in a bedroom is bad for feng shui or something, so he took it off and now it's just a dressing counter with nothing to show for. It's sad. Despite my fear of mirrors, I actually liked those mirrors, and I spent a bit of my imaginary realm on those mirrors


The dressing counter underneath used to also be my drawing board. Check out the doodles I've been doing underneath it when I was a kid



The master bedroom toilet, in which they still had the same 10++ problems of water pressure. Here, the sink works but the shower doesn't, and this is also where I got my scar on my forehead (by crashing my head on the porcelain so hard that it made a hole on my head) yet did not curb my obsession for bath tubs

This is the guestroom within the master bedroom, where I had my very first memory in my brain and spent my toddler years in there sleeping and doing my thing while my parents can keep a watchful eye on me. It's also the room I was forced to go into and peek behind the door when my parents starts yelling and screaming and get at each other's throats for something mediocre, no thanks to my controlling mom. Not exactly the most pleasant sight, but it was all there is that protects me from getting involved in their brawls



Some of the things that are in my room, which have been with me through thick and thin and watched me grow up


The upstairs guest bathroom which also has the 10++ years problem, where the toilet and the shower works but the sink doesn't really work (well, doesn't really don't even cut it since you barely get a drop flowing). My dad has somehow installed a water heater for the benefit of my hubby, most likely, but they still need to work on the water pressure. Still, it's good to have hot water to shower once in a while, though not exactly too applicable for a hot place like KK where we don't really use aircon that much


We have 2 guestrooms upstairs, this be the first. I remember this was my personal playroom/nursery back then (nursery coz before that there used to be a baby crib in there) where I let my imagination fly and play cooking and dollies and stuff. And then after the divorce, the room soon was converted to be rented out to these two pilots on a temp basis who were renting the 2 guestrooms while they were still on the job (kinda got my dad a little pissed and jealous that his little princess was getting too close to 2 grown men). And now it has become a regular recreation/storeroom where my dad bought two exercise machine and just dumped misc stuff here to be left to rot and forgotten

This be the 2nd guestroom, a much bigger and spacious place and where I spent my pre-teen years after I hit puberty. Nice place, when it was air-conditioned back then. Didn't have a PC or radio in there back then as entertainment, much less even a laptop or something, so drawing has always been my best entertainment, and was also my training ground and stress-relief by drawing yaoi and mpreg. The only beef I have about this room was that the light switch was too damn far from the bed, and for a person who is afraid of the dark like me, it's race against time to turn off the light and jump to the bed before those that go bump in the night get me

My old 10-year-plus bed that I've been sleeping throughout my pre-teen years. I'm surprised it's still standing, considering it's been creaking like hell, but my dad knows that one single bed is not gonna fit us, so he got us an extra mattress for us to sleep on. A little hard on my hubby, since he's used to air-conditioning, but I could live with it, just a little warm



Other furnitures (or therelackof) in my room. There used to be a big old desk as well, but ever since the break-in, my dad got rid of it. And that drawer on top, well, let's just say that used to be the place where I put all my 'unspeakable' drawings that should not have been done or existed in a pre-teen's mind, and also other ugly as fuck drawings I did when I was even younger

The good ol' roof that I used to climb on and lie down to have a morning sunbath, which I prolly won't do anymore since I no longer wake up that early and I'm prolly too heavy for the tiles XD

My idol stars during the pre-teen years. I can't believe my dad still kept them up on my door, but then again, it's proof that I was young once LOL



More extra shots of the little free-loaders, taken at night where they've all returned to their nests. You can see how much we've put up with for all those years, but at least despite it not lucking my parents' marriage out, it kept my dad lucky for all these years he's been alone in the house

There you have, my very first house. Well, technically not first house, since I apparently was born and raised during my baby years in a run-down apartment, but that will come in time. For now, this will be the first entry of my trip down memory lane.