The Mysterious Mind of BlackGargie

I was browsing my Hentai Foundry gallery recently to check on the feedback and comments I'm getting from people for my new OJ doujin "Escape" when I saw that someone left a comment on my profile page.

When I went to check on it, it was someone asking me if I could be interviewed for a book they were making entitled "Hentai Girls". I was surprised at first. I'm like thinking, "Wow, that is a surprise. No one has ever interviewed me before, ever."

I felt kinda honoured and told my chat friends and my fiance about it, though being that my fiance is a bit conscious about online scams, he told me not to give away any personal ID and stuff so that I won't get tricked. I assured him that that thought is highly unlikely and sent an email to confirm my acceptance to be interviewed.

They sent me back a set of questionnaires to be filled (about 25 questions in all) and encouraged me to give long answers, so I did, along with pics to be as my profile and for the interview page. I finished answering them and emailed them back. They told me in the email that they are going to have it sold on Amazon.com or something, and I'm guessing it would probably be sold to all those pervs out there. Thankfully I didn't give them my real pic.

Hopefully I would be entitled for a copy, either free or on discount. This is so exciting!

I just got done chatting with Jello13, a friend I made for a while in dA because of her cute little mpreg arts.

I used to exchange notes via dA, but I've always wanted to chat with her in person via MSN to make our lives easier, so I asked if she were online today.

As luck would have it, she was, and we chatted for a while, exchanging stories and also getting some raw materials so that I will know what to draw for her in her request (which is an odd one where her and I helping our fav mpreg characters give birth, then meet and fall in love with our men of our dreams, hooked up with them and end up giving birth to their babies, LOL).

But as we chat, I soon found out that she had been my long time fan all along, even before we met in dA.

She said that it was me who inspired her to come out of the closet and draw mpreg! How cool is that?

She said that it was my art I drew way back when I first gotten into HP mpreg and drew a Snape mpreg pic that I used to post in this webbie called EvilAsylum.com or something like that, and then when I rejoined dA under a new account, the pic of my macro-micro lovers, Nakh and Kalana of my Crying Traveller series! Wow!

I mean I drew that Snape mpreg art like, what, forever ago? When I was still in A-Levels, roughly around 18, 19 and the Crying Traveller roughly when I was in Curtin in my very early 20s? Wow! That is amazing. I feel rather honoured. I'm usually only popular online but am a nobody when I'm out in the real life. I never so much as inspire people to do anything, let alone inspire people to draw! And in mpreg no doubt!

Guess it's true when they say technology really changes people's lives, though for the better or for worse, I am not sure.

All I know is that currently right now, I'm feeling both flattered and honoured to make a difference in someone's life...more or less

Home sweet home~! *kisses the ground*

I went to KK on the 14th to get a statutory declaration of my single status which has to be signed by my dad, and also reapply for my birth cert, because my mom apparently doesn't trust her daughter enough to let me keep important documents. I could go back and ask her for it, but the thought of her knowing the reason for me asking for the birth cert is sure not pretty, so I decided to take the long way. It's tough, but a hell lot better than having to face trouble with my mom. Meh~! Even when I left her, she still manages to make my life miserable.

I never thought I'd feel homesick even I had gone back to my hometown to begin with. Kinda ironic, isn't it? Somehow I have made Brunei my home instead, and even though I take pride in my adaptability, I actually miss being in Brunei more than I was in KK.

Here's a day by day account on my days in KK:

14th Jan
Took the REALLY long drive down to KK. For once, I took the risk of not taking motion sickness pills for the ride. I slept later than I should, so during the ride there, I practically konked out. My future mother-in-law didn't join the trip because she won a free plane ride and will be joining us the next day. Slept all the way to Sipitang, had lunch, and from there, slept all the way to Penampang until we got to our hotel. Rang up my friends to tell them I'm in town and called my dad, then we hung out in the hotel room the rest of the day and had dinner with my fiance's cousin before holing up in the hotel room again, doing you-know-what ^^

15th Jan
My future mother-in-law came in, and we originally made plans with my dad to have dinner. He sounded a little occupied, and wanted us to do our own thing and if we were to look for him, find him at around 7. So we assumed he is busy and decided to have our own dinner. We spent the whole day shopping in various shopping mall (my legs suffering in the process) and I managed to buy the books that I have been needing to get to complete my collection. Then somehow my dad got pissed because we didn't show up and said he didn't want to meet us anymore. I was assured my dad had a bit too much to drink but I still felt upset that he embarrassed me in front of my future in-laws. Needless to say, I was in tears in my sweetie's arms

16th Jan
Dad called me in the morning to apologize for his behaviour after my future father-in-law called him to set things straight. We went off to do a little book shopping in a book fair that sold books that had discount from 30% to 90%! Fucking great deal~!! We went more or less on a book-spending spree, buying the most books I have ever had in my entire life, and I don't mean just comic books. Later met my dad for lunch, everything went well. We ate at the same Hakka restaurant we went to last year and enjoyed some food. Came across my old schoolmate from high school and shared updates on each other. She was one of my fans of my arts back in high school, though sadly I don't remember her name. We spent the last few shopping hours to get some sort of TV tuner, and again, my legs were killing me from the shopping. Out of curiosity, I bought some condoms to...spice it up since we've never used rubber before, but somehow it didn't work out pretty well, maybe coz we're kinda new to this rubber thing, and the "fun & games" kinda ended in a sour note, though my fiance apologized and calmed me down

17th Jan
Woke up early coz my childhood friend wanted to take me to church for her mass, though technically I was awakened by my fiance to give the rubber another shot. Worked out pretty well, but I still think au naturale is best. My fiance and his family had to go back first because they've got work to do, and I'm unemployed and I need to get things settled, so I stayed behind. I went to meet with my friend, said my last goodbyes to my fiance and went off with her, luggage and all. We had breakfast and then went to her church. It's one of those gospel new-age churches that I used to go to back then, and I enjoyed the songs and all, and the sermon was alright, talking about the truth behind the love of money and stuff. I can't outright say that I have lost faith in God, but all my prayers of making my life better and to make me strong and pull through my life with my mom wasn't exactly happening, and it made my confidence wavered a little, but after thinking it through, I guess in a way, God had probably answered my prayers by giving me the strength to fight back against my mother's abuse and gave me the one person that would save my life: my fiance. We then met up with my high school junior to play bowling, and apparently she's been quick on her feet as she is currently dating while working at a botanical research facility. I was the bad shot as usual, but we had fun, and I finally got back the last of my drawings from her! Wohoo! Now my drawings are complete, more or less, if you don't count those that have been lost in action due to inconsiderate borrowers. Spent the rest of the day hanging out with my childhood friend and had dinner, in which I found out she's no longer as innocent as I used to know her. Not exactly something I'd like to discuss since she had me in confidence, but basically things happened to her that made me see a different light on her. After spending the whole day together, she sent me to my dad's home and I had my first night in my old home at my dad's after years of separation.

18th Jan
Felt a bit of strange familiarity when I woke up. My home is situated directly at the streets, so even if I wanted to sleep in, I couldn't coz of the cars passing by and the racket. My dad woke me up to get things done. First off, we went to make the statutory declaration. Had my first look at a Justice of Peace office, which was pretty small and reminded me of a cramped travel agent's office, not the big high and mighty place that I had imagined it to be. We gave the outline to the guy and he helped us typed the statutory declaration, with my dad signing it and their stamp to prove its authenticity. Then we met up in the afternoon with another one of my dad's friends (he seems to be able to have people in high places somehow, good ol' dad) to make the police report on the "loss" of my birth cert. I figured since I couldn't get my birth cert from my mom, we're gonna do it the long way: by making a police report reporting it to be lost to get a supporting paperwork to reapply for a duplicate original. The police directed us to go to the nearby JPN to reapply for it, but unfortunately, the clerk there said that I can't get it immediately unless I have a photocopied version of my original birth cert so that they could fax it over to HQ to enable them to find it quicker, so I have to reapply manually and go to the HQ for it. I decided to call my little god-brother to gimme a lift the next day so at the same time, I could spend a day with him

19th Jan
My little god-bro came in the afternoon with her sister to pick me to take me to the HQ to do my thing. Got to know the sister a little, and she's a pretty friendly woman who is already married with 4 kids (though she looked more like she's still a college girl). When I gave the clerk at HQ my police report and my application form, she gave me a receipt and told me to come back next month because they needed time to relocate the original records and that to certify my lineage or something like that. They said if they were to issue it too quickly, they would risk giving away certificates that might lead to suspicion of identity theft and having me take the receipt and return at the assigned date will ensure that I am who I claim to be and not because of identity theft. Well, at least they didn't say it would be 100% unable to be done. We then spent the rest of the day going around shopping for stuff (bought a book in the process), and also had to drop by a cyber cafe to print out the flight itinerary e-ticket after my fiance told me that he had already booked a ticket for me back to Brunei, then I went to his home to get back my Anak-Anak Sidek (Sidek Bros) manga, all 136 volumes of it! Finally! After years of letting my god-bro look after it while I was gone to Miri to study, I'm finally getting them all back~!!! Wohoo~!!! Although the box that carried it was tearing apart and it was littered with roach shit, so I had to empty them all out and throw the box away. We chatted for a while before he left after dropping off at my home and promised to keep in touch and I spent the rest of the night rearranging my books in order of volumes, glad to be seeing them again although also sad because I remember some of them being lost due to inconsiderate borrowers as well T_T

20th Jan
I was surprised by my childhood friend asking me if I wanted to have lunch with her. I agreed, thinking it would be an opportunity for me to see my god-ma and give her the prawn crackers my future mom-in-law bought for her. After having lunch together and shopped for some new year clothes, she dropped me off at my god-ma's shop in which we had a chat. My god-pa has done a kidney transplant all the way in China and he's doing so much better now, though he has to go around wearing a mask just in case any infection might cause other health problems on him. I took the opportunity to ask for an intact box from them so that I can refit my Sidek Bros manga in, so they got me one from their warehouse. My god-ma told me that she and my mom are still not in talking terms, but advised me to still let my mom know about me getting married with my fiance despite the fact that she admitted that my mom wasn't exactly the best mom in the world and all. She told me that the last she heard about her was from her friend who worked in the immigration stamping her passport showing that she had come to KK, but I guess I couldn't care less where she ended up as long as we don't see each other. Then I waited for my childhood friend to pick me once my god-parents have to close shop and then we went for a sort of light dinner before she had to pick up her guy from the airport before sending me home. Got a short glimpse of the guy and he looked rather...interesting, to say the least, though we didn't talk much. Once I reached home, I put back all my Sidek Bros manga into the new box but then my dad forbid me to take it back to Brunei for fear of overweight, since my fiance only got me a 15kg limit. Gah! I didn't get these comics back just to leave it here again~!! But he's right in a way, and at least I'm leaving it at a place where I can get it back easily, so I relented

21th Jan
Spent top half of the day at home, waiting for nightfall because me and my childhood friend agreed to have dinner later that night with her church cell group. When she came to pick me, we chatted about old times as usual and we went to Damai area where most of the food stuff are. Since we were early, we decided to browse around some book stores to kill time. My friend took me to a bookstore that I used to go to get my comic fix back then, in which I bought the latest edition of The Case Files of the Gourmet Detective, then to this comic rental bookstore that I never knew was there, and as I was browsing to the sales section I saw, to the everlasting delight of my eyes, YAOI mangas~!!! Wohoo~!!! There were one and a half shelf full of YAOI goodness that I simply MUST get. Though coz of my ever dwindling funds, I only managed to buy 2 of it T_T We also noticed that they actually have the Jigoku Sensei Nube manga for rent and also offer order & delivery services, with a much cheaper deposit than what was offered at the comic rental bookstore in Brunei. So I quickly jumped to the chance to pre-order a set, putting my friend in charge of paying it when the shipment arrives before I pay her back on my next visit. Then we went to the dinner place and had our fill, with the price being crazy-ass high! But the upside is that the portion is big, worth the money. I met some other new friends of the church and one had a passion for manga and anime expressions, and all in all, it was a fun experience, especially when the guy who made the sermon last time brought his baby daughter to entertain us

22nd Jan
I needed a ride from my childhood friend to go to the book fair again to see if I have any luck finding some good priced books again. My fiance sms-ed me saying that we bought the wrong LOTR book and my future mom-in-law sms-ed me asking to get her a cookbook, so I thought I should get it for them ASAP while I still have money to burn. We browsed around for a while and I caught sight of this children's novel called 'Skulduggery Pleasant' by Derek Landy. What intrigued me most of all was the cover actually, because the cover was of the main character of the story, in which he is dressed in a top hat, full suit with a scarf for good measure and the highlight of his features is he has a skull for a head. He looks almost like a nice little Broadway version of the Ghost Rider. LOL! I couldn't resist. I had seen the sequels sold in Times and in Popular bookstores, and was already intrigued by the cover title, but I didn't have enough dough to buy all three, so I decided to buy the first one to give it a shot first before considering to buy the rest. I seemed to have an odd attraction towards creepy characters that look like anti-heroes somehow ;p Anywho I managed to find the books that my fiance and my future mother-in-law requested before my childhood friend sent me home

23rd Jan
This was the day I promised that I would meet with my A-Level junior and fellow yaoi friend, so again, I needed my childhood friend to give me a ride to our date spot. She came early coz she was at the same route to her meeting place and her home, so I accompanied her on her meeting (small price to pay for needing a ride) and got to meet with the parents of another childhood friend of mine. The father is a typical businessman who sees job opportunities anywhere and when he knew I was in Brunei, he jumped into the chance to try and get me to learn about this product they were selling, which is some sort of a pill supplements to encourage stem cell growth adults and acts as a substitute to all that controversial stem cell research aka cloning to heal damaged cells. Thank goodness I was in science stream, so I understood what was going on, but still, I'm not much of an entreprenuer or a speaker, so I wasn't really interested in helping to sell these, but accepted the CD and articles out of courtesy. I got to talk on the phone with that childhood friend of mine as she was still in KL, promising that we would meet someday. Then I killed time with my childhood friend before my date with my A-Level friend, and when we met it was like "OMG~!!! *HUGGLES* " kind of feeling. LOL! I thanked my childhood friend and we went our separate ways, and I quickly exchanged updates with my A-Level friend, chatting about old times and how she was doing in her new job as a teacher and my life before and after leaving my mom and such, and of course, sharing our passion for YAOI~!!! LOL! After that, she gave me a ride home and I spent the extra last few hours we had together calling both her and my childhood friend up and chatted for a while before I did my thing and went to bed

All in all, I had a rather interesting week before I finally came home today. Despite the fact that I had fun meeting up with all my friends and hung out with my god-ma and my dad (or there lack of), in the end, you can say I have found home in Brunei with my new family and with my beloved fiance, and it just feels good to be home...

New Year is here! Goodbye, 2009! Hello, 2010~!

Can't believe time has flown by so fast. Only just last week and a half we were celebrating Christmas Day, and now it's already New Year! Man, I feel old all of a sudden, but it's no big. Just glad to be alive for another year~!

This year, we celebrated the New Year's Eve at my future eldest sister-in-law's place. Before that, my friend and I, in one of his many impulses, went out to have lunch at a new Thai restaurant at Jerudong area where their curry is rumoured to be so delicious, you can drink it as it is, like soup, all the way to the last drop. Though they really need to work on the name of their restaurant. Naming it "Thai Foods" is not exactly very creative. But all in all, the food there is pretty good. Being in a Thai restaurant, I of course must try their in-house food, which is the Tom Yam noodles. It wasn't as spicy as I expected, but pretty flavourful. My friend ordered beef green curry with rice, and I must admit, the taste of the curry is very rich. You can literally taste the thickness of the coconut milk used to make it. Needless to see, my friend really drank it till the last drop~! XD

We went down to the Water Village to take pictures, particularly the village children. My friend had wanted to catch children swimming in the lake, but somehow we weren't lucky. They were all on shore at their houses playing their little kiddie games, but it was alright. My friend still ended up having some good shots, which you might probably see once he updates his blog. Cats were abundant around the area, and the kids were very photogenic. In fact, we came across a group of kids who were so photogenic, one of the kids kept begging for more pictures to be taken. Others would pose and walk away, and there was one where they posed from far but when we tried to come near them to get a better shot, they made a run for it. LOL!

By sundown, my friend sent me home and my fiance and I waited till his parents came home before we made our way to his eldest sister's home. There I found that they actually got their son a new year's gift of a punching bag, as in a REAL huge punching bag for those boxers and stuff. I tried to hit a few times but it kinda chafed my knuckles. I guess there is a reason why boxers wrapped bandages and put on their boxing gloves before hitting it.

Soon dinner was on. They ordered catering from Lotus who makes a very mean Indian cuisine and we ate it buffet style, helping ourselves to nan and chappati and curry and fish and stuff, and the most interesting dish would be briyani rice served in capsicum "bowls" where I can eat both the rice and the capsicum at the same time. Really cool! Part way through dinner, my future eldest bro-in-law had invited his friend for the dinner. I found out that he actually is a competition to my ex- tourism company, so I warmed up to him nicely, telling him the horrors of working there at my previous company, and he, too, was no stranger to the eccentrics of my ex-boss.

In between the meals, I boozed myself silly. I think I had about 2 bottles of vodka soda (12% alcohol), half a dozen glasses of Verra red wine and a couple of beers or two. I must've been totally wasted but who cares! It's New Year's Eve! I'm entitled to get myself wasted! XD My fiance's grandma and second sister and the family went back first because, well, one, the second sister's family isn't much of a sociable person and two, the grandma can't stay up so late, so the rest of us stay behind.

Finally the clock struck 12 and we immediately went around giving hugs and kisses, wishing everyone a happy new year. We took out crackers and popped them everywhere, showering confettis on everyone. I immediately made the calls to my friends and my dad to wish them well as well. My dad sounded not in the mood, probably because I woke him and whatnot, and I told him that I might be going over to KK this month, so he told me to give him a ring when it is confirmed. My god-ma was chipper as ever, and I wished her happy birthday too coz coincidentally her birthday IS on New Year's! LOL! My god-pa sounded fine, and they too told me to keep in touch and give them a ring to confirm my arrival. I called my best friend Jennifer but I kept being led to voice-mail, probably because she's asleep as well, so I rang my other best friend Elaine who is a yaoi-kindred, updating her on things and telling her about my arrival.

I was wondering who have yet to call when I saw the number of my really old friend back in high school whom I haven't talked in 9 years since she graduated from Form 5 (I was Form 2 or 3 at the time). The last I heard of her was that she was already married and moved into KL and had the time of her life doing a career she likes best, and I only occasionally hear wind of her in Deviant Art. I decided to brace myself for upcoming bills and called her. I asked for her name just to make sure I didn't call the wrong person and I was so glad to hear her again. We talked for a while, also updating each other on things, and we promised to try and catch up with each other face to face one of these days.

Finally we had dessert where I had apple crumbled smothered with custard while watching This Is It in DVD with my future niece, being that she's a fan and all and that she slept through the official premiere screening. It was nice to MJ again, but still, the 720p version that my fiance had downloaded was still the best.

All in all, it was a very nice New Year celebration. I thoroughly enjoyed it.

Happy New Year, everyone! Have a nice 2010~!!!

This year's Christmas was rather exciting and hectic at the same time because we had a Christmas party to prepare for family and friends. At first we had wanted to have a private Christmas party with just us, but then my future father-in-law said, if we do this and get it over with, we don't have to toil for next year when Chinese New Year comes around. So we agreed.

On this month as well, we went to go check on the status of our marriage application. The last time we registered, they stated that it will be ready in a month's time in which they will give us a call, but somehow it was almost 2 months, so we decided to fuck it and go get it ourselves. When we approached the desk, the lady in charge looked kinda listless and searched around before finding the approval letter and handed it to us, advising us on what to do next. There was another couple who wanted to register and they came to approach us and asked us on what to do, so we told them what we did and how to go about it and what to expect to them, though they might differ a little since the wife is the local one and the husband is of Indonesian decent. Then when we double-checked the letter, the date it was printed was a month ago! Meh~! Thank goodness we decided to take the initiative and go get it ourselves or else we would've waited forever.

During the next course of weeks before Christmas, we went Christmas shopping for gifts. We focused first on the gifts for the kids before the adults because then we are able to share the cost to buy the rest of the presents for the adults. Most definitely we got toys for the little chiddlers, but it was so hard to decide what to get for them because we don't know whether they might like it or not. My fiance and his parents and I had gone down to Miri so that we can get things at a cheaper price, but man, did we spend the WHOLE DAY walking up and down non-stop to get the stuff! I think we've done enough walking to last a week's worth of hiking! LOL~!

Things were a little tension in between, most probably because of the stress to prepare for the party, and the fact that my poor fiance was having a cough and a cold just a few days before Christmas, making him in a bit of a foul mood, but all in all, we survived it. I helped to decorate the Christmas tree all on my lonesome, and I more or less used my artistic ornament-arranging skillz to decorate the tree. Didn't know I had it in me. By the time I was done, I gotta admit it looked kinda awesome~! ^^ Too bad I didn't take a picture of my handiwork. Then it was helping out in the kitchen to prepare the dish, especially when some of the food requires an all-nighter to do.

We had, of course, the usual Western style food for the party, so there was lamb, chicken, a bit of turkey, Shepherd's pie, mixed vegetables and tons and tons of drinks to gorge on. The friends we invited came first in the afternoon. We separated family and friends because we don't want everyone to be too cramped and crowded if they were all together, and that it's best to be with people you know. I invited my friend, of course, and we had a chat and all that while enjoying the food. The family came at night to gorge and it was waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay crowded, no thanks to the big-ass huge family tree of my fiance's family side. Food was fantastic, and the dessert was amazing as usual. And we even tested out the karaoke system that my fiance's dad installed and just sang ourselves silly~! It was good clean fun.

The best part finally arrived when we opened the presents for each other. The kids were ecstatic over the toys they got, and the family was happy with what they got as well. We chipped in to get a microwave oven for my fiance's eldest sister and husband, and we got a photo frame for my fiance's second sister and husband, and because the eldest sister's husband's birthday is on Christmas Eve, we got him a tennis sports shirt he had always wanted, though we realized that it matched the cap we got him last year XD We got a handbag for my fiance's mom, and my fiance's dad said he will decide later what he wants for his Christmas present so that my fiance will be able to be sure what to get him.

The amount of Christmas present I had was not much, but it was really worth it. I got a How to Draw Manga Girls guidebook from the eldest sister and family, a brand new long skirt from my fiance's mom and everyone else chipped in to get me an EyePet for PS3~! It's so cute~! It's basically like a cyberpet that is interactive via PS3 camera that is hooked onto the machine. I tested the game out right away and it was so KAWAII~!!!

Hopefully things will be even better and less hectic on New Year and Chinese New Year ^^