The Mysterious Mind of BlackGargie

I went to watch MJ: This Is It movie tonight and only one word sums it all: AMAZING!!

I was rather intrigued when the trailer came out and my fiance showing it to me. I mean, this is the first time a concert footage was made into a movie. Usually this kind of stuff is done into a straight-to-DVD style, but to broadcast it out like this in big screen, it was something well worth to look forward to.

My fiance's eldest bro-in-law's friend works at the cinema as the guy who fixes up all the ads and trailers before a movie sequence and he said the show was coming to Brunei and he can pull some strings into booking tickets for us. We jumped to the chance to make our booking and waited anxiously for the show.

On the day (which is today, though technically it should be yesterday, but we usually get things a day later than others), besides my fiance's 2nd sister and her family, all of us went to watch the show. We got to know some new friends in the process, mostly friends of the guy who helped us book the tickets, and also his colleague, which me and my fiance's eldest sister called him "Eye Candy", because he was so good-looking~! LOL

Neways, once the show starts and played throughout that almost 2 hours, it was mind-blowing. I won't spoil it for those who haven't watched it, but man, it was amazing! He had made so much planning and tons of big-scale stuff that would totally hype up and top off what he usually does on stage back then. It was totally AWESOME! It almost felt so heartbreaking that this is the stuff that we would have seen if he had not gone from this world. He had made so much for us, and now it will never be, we will never see it in reality EVER again.

New dancers, new singers, mostly the younger generations, have actually auditioned for this before they officially started the rehearsals and out of more than 400 candidates (bloody hell, 400! Can you imagine?!), about a dozen and a half were chosen. They had the time of their lives, judging by the way they hung out with MJ doing his rehearsals and training. Makes me feel so jealous. If I were to be able to go back in time, I would probably chose to apply a job here with them, even if it means being the janitor, I don't bloody care! As long as I can be with MJ! Though, probably throughout the rehearsal, you might find a lot of things belonging to MJ missing if they'd hired me~! LOL, fangirl dreams never cease to please.

The songs were nostalgic, and you couldn't help but sing along with it. Also, the dances and the beats were so nice, your body would just uncontrollably want to move along with it. And best of all, we're seeing him sing as it is, raw and live, without the crazy screaming fans in the background. Did you know that they originally scheduled for only 10 concerts, but then shockingly shot up to 50 by demand? It's almost the same number as MJ's age!

It feels kinda ironic and sad at the same time that when MJ said "This is it, this is the final curtain call" and those were probably the last words he had ever said to the public. Almost like a curse, a bad omen of a phrase. It tugged at my heartstrings (though not to the point of crying buckets, because to be honest, I'm not 100% a fan; I just like majority of his songs) to see that he's done so much here, putting so much effort into what he's doing and he could never bring it out anymore.

The friends of the guy who helped us book tickets were more excited than most. They LOL-ed at funny moments, cheered and whooped at the amazing things MJ had in store in his concert and clapped every time one song ends. I couldn't care less and took the advantage of Bruneians ignoring nature (it's their style: If you're doing something weird that does not concern them, they will just ignore you and pretend nothing happened) and joined their hype as well, cheering and whooping and singing along with it, though short of actually clapping.

Once the show was over, I finally remembered my bladder that I was holding back for so long while watching the show was about to burst as I made a run for it to the toilet. Everyone really enjoyed it and talked about it once we're outside the cinema. It's a little disappointing for me to see that it wasn't a full house when I came into the cinema, because I would expect the King of Pop getting exposure even from Brunei friends, but I guess their mentality would be: Why pay to watch a rehearsal if it's not the real deal? It's just sad.

Thinking about it now, all we know that is mostly talked about MJ were his crimes of being pedo (which I never believe it to be true even though I'm not a 100% fan; they're just sueing for the money and the drama) and him being debts and his plastic surgery and stuff. All they could ever talk about was his bad. None of them ever thought about the fact that he had revolutionized pop music and all his achievements and contribution to the public. No one ever thought of his good, always the bad, almost like the saying "You can take a lifetime to build trust, but one second to destroy it all". And now that he is dead, suddenly everyone keeps focusing on his good side, even the media, as if it was enough to make up for all their sins of doubting MJ. They couldn't even put a good word on him when he was ALIVE, how is giving him a good word when he's DEAD gonna make any difference? I got a feeling that they made this movie not just for the sake to dedicate him, but also for the sponsors, to cover their losses over MJ's supposed concert that they spent millions on. I swear, it's bloody "human nature" (pun from MJ's song intended).

Anywho, it's a great show that no one should ever miss. Go watch it! I recommend it. Relive MJ's final moments with his entertainment family and witness the magic that he had intended to give us.

Today is probably an interesting, pivotal day for me.

Today is the day I go to immigration with my fiance and my future father-in-law to be interviewed by the staff on my marriage application.

Last night I was quite nervous, and even asked my future eldest sister-in-law how is the procedure like (because her husband is a British-Indian), in which she replied it was bloody simple with the guy explaining the do-s and don't-s of foreign marriages and passport stuff and whatnot, and the only question they asked was if her father approved of the marriage, and she even jokingly complained that they waited half an hour just to go through a 5-minute interview. My future mother-in-law said things could be different nowadays, so I better be prepared just in case.

Today, I woke up early at around 9.30am to attend the 10am interview. We made sure our application form was filled and double-checked to see if we brought the necessary documents for the interview, and all in my head I was worried what the guys might ask once we're there.

We waited for my future father-in-law to show up (seeing the Ministry and the press coming over to do inspections in the process) before approaching the counter to state our intentions. Then we waited for another 10 minutes for the person to get the interview room ready.

In my mind, things were going through my head on what they might ask.

Will they ask how we met?

Will they ask private questions between us like how well we know each other, down to the colour of our spouse's underwear?

I was in for a surprise.

It was exactly as how my future eldest sister-in-law predicted.

We were required to read the terms and conditions and sign our name on it, then he explained things like required letters if I were to look for a job, being wary of my passport status, and make sure I don't give birth outside of Brunei if I want my child to be a Brunei citizen and stuff. He didn't even ask my future father-in-law whether he approves the marriage or not.

That's it.

Yup, you heard me. That's it.

5-minutes in total.

And all the while I was worrying if they're gonna ask me am I still a virgin or do we have a healthy sex life.

I know, it's kinda pointless, but I guess it's standard procedure, coz they want to make sure that we're not a marriage of convenience.

So, one month later, we will have to go back to immigration to see the status of our marriage and received the approval letter so that we can officially register at the courthouse.

Wedding bells, here I come~! ^_^

Argh~! My tablet died~!!!

Well, it didn't really die. More like it is no longer pressure sensitive and it's behaving like a regular mouse now.

It was fine a minute ago and I was colouring away when suddenly it just stopped being pressure sensitive. First it was the right click button on the pen not working and after that PFFT! It just died.

ARGH~!!! I feel like killing myself now~!!!

Being the outsider in the family of my fiance (meaning not officially part of the family by marriage), I have learnt quickly what is my position in this family.

I am a silent observer.

I silently observe as the scenes in the home unfold.

I silently observe as the family goes into dispute.

I silently observe as there were sibling rivalries and arguments happen.

I silently observe as my future parents-in-law talk at the table about things going on in the family, or maybe when they complain among each other about dissatisfactions.

I silently observe as my future in-laws behave like Old Married Couples, bickering with each other, occasionally laughing out loud at their antics.

I silently observe as my fiance's 2nd sister grumble about things or bully the maid, even though my heart felt like scolding her for doing that (because I know if I did, I would only make things worse and make an enemy out of her)

I silently observe as I stay up late and see my fiance's 2nd brother-in-law get up in the witching hours to take a fag, wondering whether he was thinking about his marriage or his life or his job

I silently observe as my future father-in-law gives his berating and advices, mostly to my fiance's 2nd sister on how to straighten out her life.

I silently observe as my fiance's 2nd brother-in-law loses his temper and shouts at his son whenever the son is in one of his impossible moods

I silently observe as my maid met every whim and fancy of the kids, while trying to do the housework and tolerate my future grandma-in-law at the same time

I silently observe as my future grandma-in-law will sit there hogging the TV, yelling at the kids, doing the housework with the maid, turning in early or waking up at fucking 4 am and hogs the bathroom.

I silently observe as the kids play, scream, howl, laugh and cry their way through life, and handle them whenever the situation requires it

I silently observe as my fiance's 2nd sister's family have their ups and downs.

I silently observe everything, taking part as much as possible and help out and be involved whenever I can.

I am a silent observer.

I just got a text msg from my friend last night saying that Stephen Gately from Boyzone just kicked the bucket on holiday. I checked on Wiki and this is what I found:

On 6 October 2009, Gately posted on Twitter, saying: "Still busy, lots going on. Focussing on finishing my book next so may be quiet here".^[21][22]

Gately's body was discovered on 10 October 2009 while on holiday in an apartment which he owned with Cowles near Port d'Andratx on the western tip of Majorca in Spain.^{[23][24][25][26][27]} Spanish police were alerted at 1:45 pm.^[28] The cause of death has yet to be determined, although it was reported that he had "gone out for drinks, returned to his accommodation and fallen asleep, but never woke up."^[23] He was found squatting in an awkward way on a sofa, dressed in his pyjamas.^[22] Police said they had no reason to believe the death was related to abuse of substances such as drugs or alcohol and no suicide note or signs of violence were located on the corpse.^[28] The Gately family have enlisted celebrity solicitor Gerald Kean as their official spokesperson; Kean ruled out foul play and suicide, describing it as "just a tragic accident".^[6][29][30]

Fans responded with messages of sympathy on the social networking website Facebook.^[21] Boyzone manager Louis Walsh is quoted as saying: "We're all absolutely devastated. I'm in complete shock. I was only with him on Monday at an awards ceremony. We don't know much about what's happened yet. I only heard after The X Factor [UK television talent show on which Walsh is a judge] and we will rally around each other this week. He was a great man."^[21][31] Walsh dropped out of the 11 October 2009 live televised results episode of The X Factor as a direct result of Gately's death.^[29][32][33] Simon Cowell addressed the issue at the start of the programme.^[29]

Former Taoiseach Bertie Ahern said: "It's so sad. Boyzone and Stephen, they've all been part of Irish life and far wider than that, the last 15 years, and so successful, so it's a huge, huge tragedy. He was 33 years of age, 15 years at the top, a fine musician, it's just a huge tragedy to Irish entertainment, Irish music and further afield as well".^[34] Minister for Arts, Sport and Tourism Martin Cullen paid tribute: "Stephen Gately was a gifted young man with a talent for singing which brought him tremendous success as a member of Boyzone and also as a West End star. There was a joy about his music making, and his death at such a young age is both a personal and professional loss".^[34] Andrew Lloyd Webber said it is "a great loss to the musical world".^[22] Elton John said he and his partner David Furnish were "stunned" when they heard the news.^[34] Katherine Jenkins twittered of "memories 2 cherish" from a night out in the weeks leading up to his death.^[34] Stephen Fry described Gately's demise as "a dreadful shock".^[34] "This was not supposed to happen. This was not in the script", said music historian Paul Gambaccini.^[35]

Gately's bandmates flew out to Majorca on 11 October 2009.^[22][29] Louis Walsh is expected to join them soon. The surviving members of Boyzone, Keith Duffy, Mikey Graham, Ronan Keating and Shane Lynch, issued a joint statement:

We are completely devastated by the loss of our friend and brother, Stephen. We have shared such wonderful times together over the years and were all looking forward to sharing many more. Stephen was a beautiful person in both body and spirit. He lit up our lives and those of the many friends he had all over the world. Our love and sympathy go out to Andrew and Stephen's family. We love you and will miss you forever, 'Steo'.^[9]

An investigation into the circumstances of Gately's death is underway, with police concentrating on a night out he had with Cowles and searching for a missing Bulgarian man.^[22]

What is it with this year?? Celebrities are literally kicking it. First it was Michael Jackson King of Pop, then it was Farah Fawcett the First Original Charlie's Angel, then Yoshito Usui the Shin Chan mangaka, now him!! I know they say the year of the Bull is a tough year, but this is a little over the top!